Drugstore Cowgirl

One of my better friends is courting a girl that needn't be courted. I have never met her but his stories are absurd. First, she was disappointed that she did not have the time to pop some percasetts nor dilaudid before seeing a movie.. or as a last resort, sneak in a bottle of Jack.

She asked him to attend a fund raiser for the victims of the Katrina hurricane. She told him that there would be lots of finger foods and an open bar for 40 bucks a head. Probably, the classiest part of her proposition would probably have been the part when she told him that she usually has to safety-pin a note to her sweater before attending an open bar. The note would contain writings of her address so someone, anyone, can wheel barrel her home when she gets influenced by overwhelming alcoholic toxins.

I asked him how he felt about this. To my surprise, he answered that he thought it is good for two reasons. One, is that she will be more “available” when she gets trashed.. and two, now he will finally know where she lives.

Maybe cupid drank some 80 proof.

Trust Walking

Do you work with any older guys, the ones who have been called "dinosaurs" for devoting most of their life to just one cause or organization, thrown around the ringer for many years as they approach retirement? You know, the ones that wait for anyone that will listen to them, always hiding around the corner of the office with a cup of coffee and a snide remark concerning upper management. The ones that tell you the same story over again from time to time, not only telling their stories, but reliving them as they speak.

I remember two years ago, I was in our cafeteria with such a coworker, who has a surprisingly wonderful sense of humor for someone having been divorced, having battled through substance abuse and now clinging on to his job amidst rumors of being next on the list to be let go. He over-rationalizes his work day's accomplishments to combat the mounting small talk of his lack of productiveness and initiative.

Back then, he spoke to me about not being able to trust anyone in this world but yourself. "People cheat you, people screw you over, people leave you in the cold, people change on you, people die before you.. the only one you can truly count on and trust is yourself." I remember how I nodded to the beat of his words to keep his aging engine alive during a cold, bleak winter afternoon, although I really wish I could express my disagreement to his words.

I had lunch with this fellow again this afternoon, as we were both in training at a ridiculously distant location. He repeated this story to me again, and this time, it was a cool late summer day, and again I nodded to the beat of his words, but this time to keep my engine alive. I really wish I could express how much I agreed with his words.

There's someone for everyone..

Taken from a website, listing interesting classified ads..

Yesterday:

You looked ravenous at the McDonald's on my corner. I was scavenging in the trash for leftovers when our eyes met; then I saw a half-eaten McNugget. Glanced up and you were gone. Dessert? Meet me at the corner of Sixth and Vine.

Checkpoint Charlie

We decided to go out one day, out to a social environment. I was among 2 other males, all in our late 20's, so the three of us inherently appeared to crave women. In fact, at that time, we all simply wanted to do something typical, like going to a bar. I hadn't been out in almost a year, but when we did go out, we usually frequent working class establishments. This time we were in a different city (Halifax), just looking for a place to unwind and relax, kick back, and try a local beer and pretend that we knew the difference. All the places within our vision had that corporate TGI Fridays look, with the formula mahogany tables and Old English fonts.. not the sawdust we were accustomed to frequenting.

As expected, we were stopped immediately at the door by a bouncer, who began to inspect us like a male chimp does when a female chimp is introduced to the cage. I peered into the establishment, and as I figured, the place was missing something.. customers. Anyway, back to checkpoint charlie.. he asked for our identification and we all took out our driver's licenses.

He began asking simple questions like our names, what state we lived in, and any other clever questions he could infer from a New York State driver's license. Then he began to stare at my friend's license in particular. It must have been close to a minute. I wonder which word was giving him difficulty..? Meanwhile, three girls walked in, right past us without the spot check.

I realized what was occurring.. the bouncer was staring at my friend's picture on his driver's ID. It was taken when his hair was quite long, down to his shoulder blades. It was objectively a terrible look. He looked like his older sister wearing a wig. Currently, his hair is quite short. The bouncer turned to him and said, "Is this really you?"

"Yup," said my pal while casually nodding his head.

"Okay, just doesn't look like you. Do you have a sis-"

He quickly interjected, "It was taken a while ago.. I know, I know.. the hair."

The bouncer looked again at the picture with a sour look on his face, "How old are you?"

"According to my ID, I'm a dirty old man."

We all began to snicker, even the bouncer. We thought that would help us through. We actually wound up getting refused on account of my attire. I was wearing camouflage pants. Somehow this was against the dress code. Needless to say, Navy crew members were all around the city that weekend. This was the third time in my life that I was refused entrance due to my attire. When will I ever learn that in order to best supply my funds to an establishment, I must conform to the image that is needed to milk the rest of the suckers. A half an hour wasted being interrogated and we couldn't get into an empty bar. Typical. Just typical.

Morning Rush

Ah yes.. this is what I miss most about NYC.. the coffee sold off the street right before a stressful day at work.. for 10 minutes before the morning rush, you can enjoy an over-sugarfied treat. To me, the design on the cup is of Campbell Soup fame.

Back Down South!

So.. we roadtripped down south.. this time to Tennessee, Mississippi, Alabama and Virginia. Line dancing, beer guzzling, yee-haw shoutin', mesh hat wearing adventure! What a ride.. So much character in the deep south that it is charming.. I wonder what it is about the South and my fascination with working class America. I guess I yearn for a day to kick back with a cold one and listen to some slow country rock.. don't ask..

Turn it down.

Don't you wish that we always had to whisper? We may actually listen to each other better..

Stronger, Better, Faster!

It is sometimes unreal how the human condition adjusts itself when one aspect of your life changes. A real domino effect occurs everyday, and like string theory predicts, things are really smaller than they appear. I have decided to change my life and my lifestyle.. for that matter to a new one, and I am immediately reaping the benefits of a new, welcomed change. I find myself blazing through days, yearning naps whenever possible and being more productive than ever before. I think it is important to define what productive means. Sometimes just waking up is productive while some other times it is only a fraction of the day ahead.

As a result, I'm listening to new music and walking to a new beat. It is funny how deep down inside, we never really loose confidence in ourselves, we just loose sight of our potential.

I'm thinking of a wonderful day, one in which I have been waiting for some months now. One perfect day can set you straight for a while. It all occurred to me while sipping a lemonade and that song "Sex and Candy" from Marcy's Playground was playing, and it put the biggest damn smile on my face. You know, the type of smile you have when your greatest adversary kindly smirks at you letting you know that they respect your existence and appreciate your strategy. If you can make yourself smile with nobody around, it is the greatest gift you can give yourself. Am I emerging from my coma? Perfect timing for the new weather. Let's see how this plays out..

Don't Mess With Texas!

Just came back from 10 days of Texas for a work conference with a colleague. I had a great time; lots of studying and training, and lots of seeping in the southern lifestyle. For a tall Jewish guy and a small Chinese girl, we stood out like a sore thumb, but there is something to be said about southern hospitality.. we were treated like family. Everyone there has super nice cars and trucks. They have all these "W" stickers on the back of the SUVs. It's BUSH COUNTRY BABY!

Remember when you were a little kid, sitting in the back seat of your parents car on a long trip, bored out of your mind.. and then when you passed a truck, you could make a clutching movement with your arm and if the trucker was nice enough, they would blow the steam out the top of the truck.. Well, in Texas, if you hold your middle three fingers in front of your face in the shape of a "W", they return the favor. Gotta love it. It was really different for us. I was also on the lookout for guns, but I didn't see any.

In our hotel, there was a Rabbinical conference. We rode the elevator with them many times. They were all joking about the choice of the location for the conference and all the beef in Texas that "ain't kosher." We spent a lot of time in the huge Texas malls, filled with GAPs and Starbucks.

There was a popular indoor ice rink that many locals frequented. It had a huge sign that read, "Home of Tara Lipinski." Too bad we missed the rodeo. I would have loved to watch a grown man dressed up like a clown trying to distract a bull.. I heard ZZ Top was in town. Oh well... My colleague was sad to say goodbye, but I told her, "hey kid, we'll always have Texas.."

Prison Flicks

Someone very close to me just got sentenced to jail in the New York State correctional facility. Sadly enough, the person was a member of my immediate family. Don't worry, it wasn't for a violent crime, but a crime nonetheless. Today, I went and sent a letter and a whole bunch of books through the postal service.

I apologize if I have been out of commission as of late. This drama, coupled with a long term relationship breakup has sent me into an isolated state of thought. I have been very reclusive as of late, not choosing to accommodate several offers of being social. I have also ended a very short term relationship with a wonderful person that I thought would fill a void. I realized that I was only going down that path of leading someone back to the starting point. I still have the ability to make myself laugh.. and I am grateful for that one gift that I believe was given from the great heavens above. I have began to like myself more and more as I spend more alone time.. but, I realize one thing I cannot escape.. we are social beings. I have started to crave short conversations, late night coffee chats, and the act of reuniting with an old pal. I am almost ready.

So, the Big House huh? Yeah.. this is a trying time where up is down. But I remember one short little story that touches on the theme I have started this entry with and also with my previous one and makes me giggle. I would hate to paint a story were prejudiced remarks are only being emitted by the stereotypical man of the masses. Here's a different take on a similar story..

My first professional job was to be the back office support staff for a major investment bank in New York City. It was an explosive experience for me. I went throught eight interviews, each time having the stick shoved that much deeper inside until I would bleed the answers they wanted. The process took almost a month to complete and as each round progressed, I noticed that many of the faces that I identified with during the process were vanishing.

After getting the job, coincidently, it was tax season. I was lifted from my geek duties on the computer and sent to the tax reporting office. Everyone at the office was ultra conservative and reserved. The office needed extra labor for tax reporting so we had to learn all the tax regulations of the great United States revenue system.

We all kept to ourselves and many coworkers voiced their fears that they were being secretly tape recorded through various clandestine measures: bugs in the elevator, recordings in the bathroom, small transceivers in the lunch room and so on.. most people were nervous enough not to open up. One guy insisted on 'signing' to me in the men's room. He didn't even know sign language so it was a makeshift attempt. To their credit, I did witness two firings due to 'questionable behavior.'

Ok, lets start this story.. The company hired a few accountants to help out in the tax season. One such accountant had the name Arthur. Arthur was a 50 something Jewish accountant that sported the typical accountant motif: nice vintage dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up and tucked under right after the elbows, a neatly trimmed blond/red beard, bald spot, thin glasses, bad posture, dark slacks and black shoes, electronic watch.. and on and on... he had a style I liked; he was definitely stuck in the late 70s.

Arthur was in my group which consisted of about thirty people. It was a multicultural group; I do remember a girl from South America that I began taking a liking to.. another story though.. But I remember there were two black guys who were a blast to hang with. They were one of the few coworkers that didn’t care about being a puppet. One guy was named Karl, a Brit that used to photograph soccer clubs in England, and the other guy was named Roger.. and he seemed pretty normal other than the fact that he loved to talk about women all the time.. but I guess that is normal. Karl and Roger always joked about the fact that they were the only visible black people in the office.

It was funny watching Arthur use a computer. He would type only with his two index fingers at a pace reminiscent of the minutes passing by your life by while watching C-SPAN. He would always shout, "Oww - wah.. Jay-sus Chryssssst.. just khill me already with these damn computers!" in a very Woody Allen trochaic manner.

One day, the head trainer appeared and told us that she needed two volunteers to learn tax law concerning corporate bonds. Nobody volunteered so she simply picked Karl and Roger since their proximity to her was simply unavoidable. Anyway, Karl and Roger were gone all day and the remainder of the group finished the daily lesson quite early. We decided to continue, and our group started to learn tax law concerning corporate bonds. We were trained for the last two hours of the day. The head trainer reappeared with Karl and Roger. Our trainer sporting a small smile, sarcastically said to the group "Hey everyone, it's Karl and Roger.. guess where they've been?"

Arthur nonchalantly lifted his head from the books and with a serious face answered in that all-knowing New York Jewish accent, "Prison?"